For the first time in a few weeks, I was required to attend pH rehearsal. So I went. We spent the rehearsal deconstructing our show pHamily. It was the first time I'd improvised in about a month or so.
I've been only performing on Friday nights (by my own choice) and if you read this consistently you know that I've only been scheduled for pHreedom Idol for the past few weeks. That means that I've been playing the same character every week - the Simon character - on pHreedom Idol. While it is technically improvising, it's not really stretching my boundaries. I feel like I haven't really been a part of a real improv show in a very long time.
Last night, I was excited to improvise in rehearsal. We talked a little bit about the show - our likes and dislikes - and then worked on things to overcome those issues. I got up to do a few scenes and felt like I had completely lost any improv skill that I once had. I used to have so much fun playing characters and now I have so much trouble just trying to find a character to play. I ended up basically playing myself in all of the scenes. Even then, I didn't play myself well.
Here's the problem. I'm not sure that I care. I've had so much fun writing and directing Jerkology that I don't know if I want to really be an improviser anymore. I have so much more energy and enthusiasm for writing and directing than I do for improvising right now. Maybe this is something that will pass, but right now it's how I feel.